Monday, October 17, 2011

"Small Fish" Episode 5: "Nevermind The Issue At Hand"

When you put a group of small fish in a giant pool of uncertainty, it only causes a deep frenzy to run wild through their system. Anxiety, ambivalence and the direr need for a companion becomes more apparent as time goes on. I sit outside a local coffeehouse known as The Bean Bag. I soak in the diverse scene of lovers with arms wrapped around each others firm bodies and the hermits with their fragile loneliness engulfing their ambiance. People, in great multitudes, search everywhere to find that one they are meant to be with forever. Sometimes, it does not always work out that way. Sometimes they find you way before you find them. Love can strike you at odd moments in life. For instance, me sitting alone in a fixed position at the cafe can bring in many opportunities for me. Someone can easily join me in simple conversation about pointless pop culture facts, the random heatwave we are experiencing in mid October, my astrological sign, and so forth. Loneliness, in this example, is no longer an issue. What can become an issue is if Mr. or Mrs. Right is right in front of you...but you are seen with someone else. Even if the connection is simply platonic, persistence always pays off in the end...regardless of the consequences or "socially accepted" standards. If love has a chance to blossom, that chance should never (under no circumstance) be destroyed by fear or wasted wishing "I should have". Life is only lived once, and if once is not good enough when you finally reach the end of your line here on Earth, then you did not live fully. Period. Playing with a double edged sword is never easy. You either live in regret or take on a challenge when it hits you...head on! Dealing with love (true undivided love), there is no grey area that lies between success and remorse.

Gil did everything he could during their relationship to make it work. He would be the friend to keep all her dirty secrets locked away safely in his heart, the lover that would selflessly give copious amounts of affection to without ever prying for anything in return, and the boyfriend that tried to make matters pleasant when the going got rough. After weeks passed her by, Laurie finally came to terms with her love lost. A whirlpool of a toxic relationship finally ended with the truth surfacing. The anger and hatred she harbored for both Gil and Tonica, disintegrated amongst logic. She knew Gil was no good for her, at the same time she knew this distruction had to happen for her to slip into her new skin. A skin that fit her perfectly. I sat her down and rationalized how love is an action that should never be restricted, even if Gil's love was not with her. He found a woman who was just right for him. It did not make the way Gil handled the situation appropriate by no means; however, in the end he followed his one true passion, Tonica.  Tears fell down her rouged cheeks and a nod was exchanged. Under her auburn locks, Laurie comprehended all I expressed. Love is a tender flame, but sometimes you just have to never mind the issue at hand and find that person who is just right for you regardless of their immediate status. You are a small fish in a giant pool. The waters are frightening if you are alone.

1 comment:

  1. BRAVO!!! What a wonderfully, inspiring conclusion SMALL FISH has taken in episode 5! Finding love, right from wrong, now is the logic and letting go of someone who's meant for another, to find thee someone who's meant for you!

    Not only do I find your Episodes perfectly spoken, I find them life inspiring. You speak of a tale every human encounters, to love and to be loved. And when thee love opportunity is right in front of you "...regardless of the consequences..." now is the time to make it known, and seal it with a kiss!

    You've done it again Skye and thank you for the inspiration. I will be the first one to read your first novel